.F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

friends. a simple word isn't it? it's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. who are you friends? i used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. now i know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch your hearts. you could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be best time of you life, just because it was with them. they're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. they don't judge you or make you change. they accept you exactly as you are. they look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. you all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs, and smiles. you're tied together by love for the other. friendship is the strangest but greatest thin in the world.

i love you my friends..

Trust No More..~

these days tears are so easy to mask. confidence is so easy to fake..and life is so easily dramatically change. people murder cause of hate..and may would die for their love. so no matter which emotion death is prominent. i just know we only live once. we live, we grow, we attempt to find a perfect life, job, family.. live life?! take risk to do anything and everything you want..and these days you CAN NOT TRUST ANYONE and people are like songs, everyone has their own beat, but some are stolen and try to act like other songs.. some peoples are SO FAKE..

NO MORE..!! 

STOP IT..!!

~HEARTLESS~

x-ray...

i went to Institus Sukan Negara (ISN) to x-ray my right hand today. actually there was a problem with the bone at my finger. it almost 3 weeks i have been postponed to make an x-ray for my hand. i still can't get the full result, whether there was a minor fracture or what. Mr.Balan the person who are checking for the x-ray said i might having a problem with my ligament. do you know what is ligament??  ok, ligament classified as dense connective tissue. ligaments link bones to other bones and provide support to joint. my ligament have been a bit damage he said. but, he's not sure whether it's serious or not, he told me i've to come again another 2 or 3 weeks to make an x-ray again because there was a "different" line on my bone that he can not trace. so, just pray that nothing serious happen to  the second x-ray later.

F-I-N-G-E-R-S

god gave me 5 fingers for a reason...

pinky - is for my best friend and our promises that will never be broken

ring - is for him, and proof that we will be together forever ❤ 

middle - is for those people that push me to far and to show them how i feel

index - to silence them to savor the moment

thumb - is for everyone to let them know i'm going to be ok no matter what

got it...?

Face It No Matter What..

there are the things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. the risk of love is loss, and the price of loss is grief. but the pain of grief is only a shadow when compared with the pain of never risking love. thus, tears are not the sign of weakness but rather the voice of overwhelming grief... and unspeakable love.. sometimes you can't have the person you really love maybe is just part of your dreams that you can't really have it to be yours. remember, those who are already gone, and appreciate those who are now by your side..

I Love Quotes..

• pencils are made with erasers to give to second chance. but the real logic is, eraser on pencil was made small, for you to remember that chances are limited.
• life is not about waiting for the storm to pass..it's about learning how to dance in the rain.
• life is like a book. once you finished the page you don't stay on it. you have to move on and turn the page!
• don't judge book by it's cover unless your willing to read the story.
• if you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place..
• people are like music; some speak the truth and others are just noise.
• friends will pick up what you dropped; but best friends will tell you that you dropped it and keep walking.
• give thanks for everything, knowing that every step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better.
• i'm proud of my heart. it's been played, stabbed, cheated, burned and broken, but somehow still work..

the prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. the prettiest eyes have cried the most tears and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain..

Terkenang..

mood : memory recall

have you ever heard a song from so long ago with so many memories tied to it that it made you smile, cry? and didn't you with that you could go back into time when everything seemed so much simpler? those are songs that are the soundtrack of our lives... the one that bring back all the memories.. yes the memories..

the memories that created by you is still alive..

Be A Better Me..

i don't have any resolution.  I JUST WANT TO BE A BETTER ME. better in every single thing. better in controlling my anger and temper especially , better emotions, a better daughter, better in financial, and have better instincts. ready for a love..?? *tett* hahaha.. a BIG NO NO.. i don't think so. i just want to have more money, so i could do anything what i want.. ehe.. :p

insyaallah..i will and i'll try..

Learn To Appreciate..

mood : internal monologue

you will start to appreciate things when you have lost them.. i mean, can't you just appreciate and be grateful that she's doing everything.. everything to make her ownself happy?

owhh please.. please.. pleasssseeee baby.. don't hurt her ok? she's been in suffers enough, please don't try to do anything that makes her pissed off or hurt. please don't make her stay away from you. just don't do anything that you know it may breaks her heart to pieces.. coz you know she's getting tired and feels of letting go...

......NO TITLE......

i don't know and i don't have the right words to explain to you, i just saying the truth what i have done.. is it wrong?? is it a crime to be honest with you..? am i too bad??  i know i've been hurt you so many times.. but it doesn't mean i don't care your feeling. day by day i try so hard to be a better me, to fix everything what i've been ruined for the past. i'm for real, i'm standing with what i said. I WANT TO FIX EVERYTHING & I WANT TO BE A GOOD PERSON.. i know you can stand with your own now, you can ever live without me anymore... that's great.. and i do hope i could do the same thing what you had done..

I Miss You.. ❤ (T_T)

i wish i could say it's all said and done,
i wish i could say this battle was lost and won
i guess this is it, though i wish i could just,
swallow my pride, take you and admit,


i'm sorry for everytime i looked into your eyes,
i won't be your questions, nor the answer
you'll never find,
and i wish i could go back, fix things and make it right,
i wish you would just look me in the eye,
take me by the hand, wipe away every tear i've cried,
over you.. i say i'm through,
but i miss you, i'm sorry
i still miss you..


ever had that feeling where you miss someone you've hurt
even though they're right in front of you?
they seem like strangers, different people that the one you loved and
thought you knew..
and it hurts.. it kills..
and i still love and miss you..

moment i miss the most.. :(

we always spend our money to "jalan-jalan cari makan"

❤ YOU are the BEST and EVERYTHING to me..!! ❤

p/s : to my dearest sister, I'M TRULY SORRY for all the mistakes i've done towards you.. and i wish i could still have a chance to fix everything to be right. please forgive me.. (T_T)

Cooking With Me.. ❤

ok... entry kali nie nak cite sikit pasal wantan... haa.. penah makan wantan tak?? mesti ada yang jawab tak, and ade yang jawab penah makan kan.. penah terpikir nak buat wantan sendiri??? jom kite buat wantan sendiri.. so today, tetibe jer rase nak makan wantan balik2 dari keje. tanpa berfikir panjang, aku siapkan bahan2 nak buat wantan nieh.. aku tak lah expert memasak, tapi bile dah datang keje gila..sume aku nak try... hahah... btw, this is not the first time i make wantan.. =)  nak cakap susah, actually tak la susah mane... juz korunk buat dengan citarasa masing2.. as long kene ngan selera korunk lerr... kan.... so, tak nak cakap banyak2.. meh tengok bahan2 nak buat wantan nie..

nie bahan2 nak buat wantan:

kulit wantan

minyak

bawang merah

daging cincang

cili padi

daun sup

telur

air

garam dan ajinamoto

cara2 nak masak:

1. panaskan minyak dan tumiskan bawang merah dengan cili padi
2. masukkan daging cincang bersama sedikit air
3. kemudian, masukkan daun sup, garam dan ajinamoto
4. agak2 daging cincang dah sedikit lembut dan air sedikit kering, pecahkan telur dan gaul rata
5. akhir sekali, balut inti bersama kulit wantan

haaa... senang kan... meh tengok hasil wantan aku buat...

inti wantan yg sedang dimasak

air daging yang hampir kering..

inti yang dah siap dimasak.. =)

ngee...inilah hasil wantan saya.. ;-)

p/s : nak makan nanti baru goreng..heheh.. selamat mencuba... ❤

A Sign Of.. *VIRGO*

dey are quite lonely people who feel uncomfortable in crowd.. tho' bright, attractive, graceful and charming, dey are secretive and constantly nurture worries.  dey are PERFECTIONIST.. whether it's eating [it remind me of title "anak askar" given by my fren to me..  becoz aku makan in sequence.. hahahahah...], grooming [my hair is the most important part i took a long time to touch.. heheh..] , working or romance and dey are FUSSY about their looks [if gosok baju kemeja, bahagian kolar paling aku sensitif, kolar salu jer nak biar "stand" nampak kemas..hahah..adoi..].  dey are cool, capable, sincere and dependable people.  dey sparkle wif intelligence and clarity of thought and can stand more intense work over longer periods.  dey are brilliant, practical, and earthly and waste of time, money, etc... dey LIKE punctuality, truth, economy and prudence and HATE vulgarity, dirt, sloppiness, idleness, wastefulness and being late..

❤ I AM ME.. ❤

Oh..Duit Terbang Lagi...

i bought a hush puppies slipper without any plan.. hahaha... aiyo... but it's really satisfy me..! :) [perabih duit jer keje lately nieh..] 

let me share with u the picca..

feel the hush..

the design.. nice right..??

satisfaction buy.. haha..

can't wait to wear it... hehe..

One More Reason To Relax.. 

T.I.R.E.D...~

mood : give up


i hate it when everyone just assumes everything's fine. people always think i'm smiley and happy every second of the day. but actually i'm the complete opposite. everyone believes the fake smile, the fake laugh and the fake happiness. but the thing is... i'm sick of trying and tired of smiling because on the inside i'm dying.. i just wish that one day when i say i'm fine, someone would come to me and say no, your not fine and then talk to me and listen to me.

My Little Prayer..

Dear God.. please give me strength. Let me face my days with full of joy. And let the person happy and keep that person away from trouble. That's all i want for now.. Amin..


mood : totally sick
music : perawan cinta by rossa




p/s : my pray always be with you..

Terjadi Lagi..~

ok.. tak penah2 aku nak post sampai dua entry.. hari nie aku buat... aku makin phobia untuk memandu... kenapa..?? kenapa..?? dan kenapa..??? itu yang menjadi persoalan dalam kotak fikiran aku juga... setelah menghadapi hari yang agak malang pada 29 January ari tue... today jadi lagi.. tapi kali nie bukan accident la... tp ALMOST accident... nak tau dengan ape..?? LORI..!!! lori ok..!!! weh..... nyawa aku nie bukan boleh di beli dengan wang ringgit la mangkuk..!!! kepada pemandu kete UNSER HIJAU-WNA5347... KO SANGAT BONGOK!!!! yer.. memang aku menyumpah seranah dengan ko..!!! eyh.. kalo yer pun nak mati... mati sendiri la weh..!! yang ngko dok himpit aku sampai aku almost langgar lori kot..!!! jahanam sungguh la ko nie...!!!! KALAU AKU BAWAK LORI MINYAK, MEMANG AKU DAH HENTAM KETE KO YANG DAH SEDIA KEMEK2 TUE TAU TAK..!!!!!

*thank God.. i still ALIVE..

❤ Lucky To Have YOU..!! ❤

hmm... actually it's not too late for me to tell u.. i got a SPECIAL reward from my sister..!!  we went to i-city for a snowalk..!! hahaha...  it was a great moment to play wif snow.. [tak dpt main kt luar negara..kt i-city pun jd laaa...kn??]. we spent our time together.. it's quite long we both neva spend our time actually.. [maaf yer..prangai sangat sy nie.. ;( ]..  so, as to fulfill our wish.. i-city become da choice.. [banyak gak duit abes kat sini..xde keje kan..] come.. lemme show some of da picca...

in da igloo.. (",)

❤ wif my sister... ❤

it's really cold...!!

ice..ice..baby...

to my dearest sister shida.. thanx a lot for da special reward..!! thanx for fulfill evry of my dream.. thanx 4 being beside me evry single time.. THANX FOR EVERYTHING..!! it's truly honoured to hev a sister like YOU..!!! 

❤ I MISS YOU A LOT MY SISTER..!!! ❤

p/s : jangan lupe plan kite nak g makan2 plak tau... :)

Hari Yang Malang & Geraammmmm..!!!~

ok guys.. kat sini nak citer skit ape yang jadi sebenarnye... it happen YESTERDAY.. 29 JANUARY 2012.. aku tengah syok2 bawak kete.. then aku nak belok kat satu simpang kiri ini.. dengan BANGGAnye.. aku bagi SIGNAL ok..!!! BUKAN aku tak bagi... if aku tak bagi satu hal la gak kan.. dengan laju nye kete VIVA ELITE (PUTIH) plat BLE 2485 yang di pandu oleh anak2 gadis yang aku rase baru dapat lesen gak nye..[kat kete masih tampal sticker "P" kot..!!!] BAJET hebat trus potong arah kiri dengan LAJU nye ok..!!! ape la bengap sangat engkau nie budakk....!!!! kat simpang mane boleh laju2..!! kau reti bawak kete ker tak ha???!!

nak dijadikan cite, aku ngn mak berhenti kan kete kt tepi.. yang buat aku naik angin and darah yelah... weh... kau BUDAK jer kot..!!! cakap ngan mak aku serupa ORANG TAK PERGI SEKOLAH tau x..!!! JANGAN NAK KURANG AJAR bile cakap ngan MAK AKU boleyh..??!! nak tau sebab ape aku marah sangat nie..~ haa... nie conversation between aku, mak, ngan budak yang kurang ajar nieh... name die DIRA...!!

mak : laju nye awk bwk kete dik..

dira : akak, akak dah masuk lorong saya masalahnye...

mak : tapi, kite dah masuk lorong kiri dulu, awk trus jer pecut laju.

dira : so, akak nak salahkan saya skrang la nie..?!

mak : tak, bukan nak salah kan awk. cuma nak btau awk laju sangat.

dira : sy kt lorong sy, akak tue tetibe masuk.. sy TAK SALAH..

mak : awk laju semacam jer,kan dah bg signal. kete pun dah masuk lorong and awk laju2 nape?

dira : akak yg tak perasan sy, BUKAN SALAH SAYA..!

(disininya aku sbg anak memainkan peranan dgn cuaca yg panas, makin PANAS HATI aku tgk bdk nieh..~)

aku : sy tak nampak awk??? if sy tak nmpak awk, tak kn la sy bg signal and masuk ker lorong kiri..??

dira : kau MUNGKIN tak perasan aku... kau dh masuk kat lorong aku..

aku : mmg sy nk msk kt lorong awk, tp sy dh bg SIGNAL.. if ade kete, xkan la sy nk masuk plak kan??

dira : kau nak ckp aku SALAH lagi la nie???!!

aku : then awk pun salahkan sy gak kan???

dira : kete sy calar.

aku : kete sy nie kemek. so?

dira : awk yg LANGGAR sy.. BUKAN sy langgar  awk.. [babi bdak nieh tuduh aku langgar die..!!!]

aku : sy LANGGAR AWK..??? awk yg laju,, then sy yg langgar awk la?? [celah mane aku langgar die tah..]

dira : awk dh masuk lorong sy.

aku : sy bg signal, sy bkn tak bg. jln clear so sy msk. awk tue yg laju. dh la kt simpang.

dira : snang cite cani la, lau dua2 degil kte g balai.

mak : nak g balai buat ape? bkn teruk pun.

dira : so, akak nk settle mcm mane?

mak : awk nk settle mcm mane? bkn salah kite, awk yg bwak laju2 kt simpang.

dira : kak, akak yg msk lorong sy tau. [stiap perbualan die x brani pndang ok..!! tak habis2 nk ckp aku masuk lorong die..tue jer modal yg ade ek??]

mak : kite dh msk dlu, awk tue yg laju.

dira : SAYA MEMANG TAK SALAH. dah mmg lorong sy. [eyy mangkuk.. ko sdar tak ko tue bwk laju kt tmpat nk msuk simpang. lau polis ade pun, CONFIRM ko kne SAMAN la bodo..!!]

mak : mmg lorong awk, tp kenapa bwk laju2 kt simpang???

dira : (diam tak terkata)..mcm nie la kak, akak bg no fon akak, kte settle. akak amik no fon sy. 

mak : ok.

setelah dua2 tkr no.fon.. dgn sombong nye blah..[ey, TAKDE MANNER kan kau nie ngn org tua..!!]

princess aku kemek skit kt bahagian co-pilot. walau tak banyak n tak teruk mane pun.. MY PRINCESS STILL HURT..OK..!!! EVEN KEMEK SIKIT PUN.. AKU SAKIT HATI TENGOK..!! KO PAHAM..???!! calar tak payah ckp la kan... [die pikir calar kete die jer, kemek and calar kete aku kau ade pikir..?? TAK DE KAN... takde DIAM..!!!]

I SHUD SAID THIS TO YOU IF I MEET YOU AGAIN..!!!~

P/S : TO DIRA.. YOUR STUPIDITY IS HIGHLY INCREASE DUE TO THE STUPIDNESS OF YOUR  STYLE OF DRIVING..!! TQ..~ [GERAMMMMM....!!!]~

Masih Aku Terasa..

haaa.. u ols... mesti tertanye2 title entry kali nieh kan...bunyi macam KECEWA jer... haaa..mestilah TIDAK..!!~ pagi nie bangun jer dari tdo... aku terdengar lagu nieh... MASIH AKU TERASA by GERSANG.. tetibe jer rase macam.. ahhh... tertouching jiwang plak... kan... hahahahaha.... [xde motif sangat..].. :p bukan ape..dengar lagu2 lame nie SYOK gak sebenarnye if nk compare ngan lagu2 skunk yang ntah ape2 jer kadang.. ok..ok.. tak nak merepek lagi panjang2..  jom layan lirik die nieh...

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meneruskan cinta yang lalu
kerana kau yang aku sayangi..
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p/s : for those yang tak pernah dengar lagu nieh.. gi google and search lagu nieh ok... layannnn....

Me And The Only Me..

i might not be sumone's first choice..

but i am a great choice..

 i don pretend to be sumone i am not,

 bcoz i'm gud at being me..

 i might not be proud of some of da things i hev done in da past..

 but I'M PROUD OF WHO I AM TODAY..

 i may not be perfect, but i don nid to be..

 i am da way God made me..

take me as i am..

or..

watch me as i walk away..

it's juz me..

Wish..

sumtimes u wish u cud just turn it all off.  all of ur feelings and emotions and let them fade away without a second thought.  because life is painful sumtimes.. and there will be things dat will hurt u..  it's a part of being human, u hev to go thru all of dat pain..  ders no way to turn it off, no way to stop da way things falls into place.  but knowing dat one day.. da pain will be over and dis overwhelming feeling will be eradicated.. meks u realize i'ts ok for u to keep evrything turned on..

da harder u work, da harder it is to surrender..
those truth hurts and those lies heal..

I Just Want You To Know..

i know ur life can go on without me, dat u can be hepy without me, dat u can survive without me.. but even if u turn me away, i still choose to stay with u and be ur sweetest stranger forever..


if u hide, i'll seek for u.. if u're lost, i'll search for u.. if u leave, i'll wait for u.. if they try to take u away from me, i'll fight for u.. coz i neva wan to lose someone like YOU..


if i can mek evrything fall wer it shud be, i wud.  if i cud mek life better for u, i wud.  but i can't.. all i can do is TO LET U NOE dat MINE has been BETTER ..

BECAUSE OF YOU..

p/s : promise me..u won't forget our laughs, our jokes, our smiles, our memories, our friendship..

The Relationship..

wat wud you do if.. every time you fell in love you had to say goodbye?? every time you wanted someone dey wud neva be there?? your best friend died tomorrow and you neva got to tell them how you felt??  even if you don't care anymore.. you love someone more than ever and you cudn't have them?? you neva got da chance to say i am friends with all my family and they noe i love them??  ...people live, but people die..  if you died tomorrow, you wud be in my heart.. wud i be in yours??  we might be best friends 1 year, pretty good friends da nex yer, don't talk dat often da nex.. and don't talk at all da yer afta dat.. so, i juz wanted to say, even if i neva talk to u again in my life, u're SPECIAL to me.. and u hev made a difference in my life.. i look up to u, respect u, truly cherish u.. do u noe the relationship between two eyes..? they blink together, they move together, they cry together, they see things together and they sleep together, BUT neva see each other they.. THAT'S WHAT FRIENDSHIP..?? if i called you to pick me up bcoz of sumthing happened.. wud u come..?? ..if i had one day left to live my life.. wud u be apart of my last day?? ..if i nided a shoulder to cry on.. wud u giv me yours..??

<3 I MISS YOU SO MUCH..!! <3

I Back..

hello..
it's been along i din involve wif a blogger world.. kn..???
haa.. and now i mek a come back..
hahahaha.... :p
it's all becoz of FARIZAH ROSDI a.k.a EJA
she made me to start a blogger again..


nothing much i wud like to share at current moment..
it's juz a come back from me to continue my writing..
share evrything wat i've been thru..
to tell u wat i feel..
evrything...


i can only xpress wat i feel here..
i din say dat i can't tell u evry single thing..
but sumtimes we don hev da right words to tell others..
so, dis is one of da way how i xpress wat i feel..
and hoping u wud understand thru wat i've write..

hmm.. nothing much i wud like to share..
to be continue in other entry keyh..
(^______^)

it's me and eja.. =)

p/s : eja, u've made me reveal da feeling inside my heart here... hahaha...